Its sort of bittersweet to see
family and friends in happy relationships
They have someone to love
Someone to love them
and someone to share
their lives, stories, and experiences with
Most of the time
it's okay to be alone
until around those who aren't
That understanding
and acceptance is
a luxury unknown to me
At these times
I yearn to have my own
someone to share with
to tell me thoughts and secrets
but when opportunity knocks
I turn away
I'm afraid to trust
defensive, reserved, and guarded
How can I find someone
when the past has taught
to trust no other
So I suppose for now
I'll learn to be myself again
and in so doing, trust myself
maybe someday, in due process
of living my life for me
I'll find my special somebody
(written 1 August 2011)
