Lies and Alibis

I wake up crying in the middle of the night
Thinking, maybe I was wrong
But then I see their faces, in my mind’s eye
And hear your stories, your lies and alibis
To cover what you thought I was too dumb to realize
 
I believed you, I still loved you, I wanted to believe you
They were just friends who had their stories wrong
They were just jealous and wanted me out of the way
They were all just confused…but they had the same story…
I wanted to believe you, that your stories and alibis weren’t all just lies
 
I knew something was up, I couldn’t prove a thing
It was all just speculation, what if I’m wrong
I don’t want to lose you
And then it came and I knew for sure
All my worries, suspicions and fears were grounded in a truth I didn’t want to know
 
She asked me if we were still married, that you said we were separated
She was crushed, hurt, and confused; I couldn’t blame her
She knew something was wrong but didn’t want to believe
I knew how she felt, but now I knew
All the pieces came together, and yet…
 
I wake up cryin in the night, thinking what if I was wrong
But then I see their faces all over again
I hear your stories, lies and alibis
And I hurt all over again
It all hurts all over again